Friday, August 28, 2009

12 months 10 days....

Twelve months and ten days ago we had a big surprise. Not that Leah was an "oops" baby. She was planned. We just didn't know it would happen SO quickly! We have been truely blessed to feel in tune to God's plans for us and childbearing. I love our two sweet babies! I could not imagine our lives without them- for even a second.

How sweet it is to look back one year ago.... my first was so little. And I was so shocked to be holding that test. My body is very sensitive to pregnancy hormones. I have found out with both my girls at 3-4 weeks. Which is very scarey! Now, I sit here with 2 healthy, beautiful children.

I have battled anxiety since this very day. Im not really quite sure what changed. But, I knew what I would be missing if something happened to that baby inside me. Things haven't changed. I still pray every day to help me find reprieve from my worries. I know God does not want me to live this way. But, its hard in our society to watch and read all the awful stories of kids shooting their grandparents because they told them No.... teenagers loosing their lives in car accidents... sweet Mother's never getting to bring their children home.

I will overcome because I have God on my side. My children will always know a happy Mommy. I promise. Because they are my life. We all struggle with things, but looking back to just over a year ago today reminds me of how far I have came!


God can do immeasureably more than we could ask for or imagine. Ephesians 3:20

5 comments:

Sandy said...

let me just tell you that I saw the thumbnail for the blog and I ABOUT CRAPPED MY PANTS! I thought you were pregnant again! :) So much has changed within that time period hasn't it? God is so good, anxiety and all.

Leah Robinson said...

AMEN!

Abby said...

yeah, i'm with sandy... you gave me a scare.. not that it would be a scare, but i would just feel for you.. this past year, (along with every other) has definately been a blessing..:)

Tera said...

I too worry about my girls' safety more than I should. Just this week when I was filling out pre-school papers, I was questioning everything...I even had someone agree with me that I was a bit anal. :) But, I love my babies...I want them in carseats, I don't want them to have juice, I don't want my kid to get lice, etc. :) Such little things to worry about I know!

Brittany said...

Ok you had to know that by putting a pregnancy test at the start of your post that we would think you were prego! hah! So everyone in playgroup found out you were pregnant with Leah through the blog, so I thought well maybe this is how she is going to share #3 : There will always be things to worry about with our kids. That means you are a good mommy. My parents know all too well that we need to cherish the time we do have with our kiddos.